Reprogramming the subconscious?
We all have our own beliefs— religion, mother nature, the universe, God, Gods,— something greater than us.
I tend to listen to the universe.
Recently, I keep hearing the same chord.
In order to:
get rid of my fear,
stop comparing myself to others,
start appreciating myself,
start doing the things I love,
start forgiving myself,
I have to stop the noise.
I have to stop believing all of the predetermined conditions that my subconscious has on repeat. These conditions that were programmed over many years, starting with the conditions I inherited from my parents self-doubts, my parents were programmed from their parents (it's a continuous cycle); and let's not forget the conditions from my school age years, K-12, (the most awkward period of my life). Oh and the workplace, and society in general are all contributing factors to my conditioned subconscious.
What am I talking about?
Let's use publishing a book, I have written as an example. Oh yea, did I mention it's a children's book?
As I start to imagine this scene of children sitting in a bookstore criss-cross-applesauce on the brightly colored carpet, waiting in anticipation for the reader to turn to the next page of my book; the scene bursts like a popped balloon!
Deep down within my core, I do not actually believe I can get the book published. I second guess the story, the illustrations, I talk myself out of the passion that it took to write the story to begin with. And when I am on this freight train, I always ask myself - "who do you think you are?"
You see what I did there?
I have already set myself up for failure.
And if by chance I do obtain this goal, then I chalk the win up to "luck"—not giving myself the credit for all of the hard work I put in. 🤦🏻♀️
I have been on this cycle for so many years!
Its enough already.
This new year, this new decade–is the perfect opportunity to kick all of these conditions to the curb.
I am going all in.